11.18.2017

Reflections of 2017

As we're nearing Thanksgiving now & our oldest child's 14th birthday, I cannot help but *REFLECT* upon all that IS.

The chaos of life is still very present, yet just an element in the background. It's easy to get lost in the constant movement of life. For me, I see this as a parallel to my children's Sensory Integration Dysfunction. They become overwhelmed with stimuli in their environment; I with the tides of events in LIFE. I now find myself coaching both them & myself to be PRESENT & In-the-Moment. It's a process of developing focus and a almost simple mindset. It's taken me nearly 14 years to get HERE in this modality of LIVING.

Though all the interventions we chose for the kids are very active & a living/breathing structure (Medical, Behavioral, Emotional, Nutritional, Mental, etc.)-- the SHIFT for ME has been moving that structure to the foundation or background activity of our family's LIVING & not in the forefront of my concentration. Now, I can choose to find RICHNESS in the moment(s) with each child-- meeting them right where they are, experiencing & loving them through these precious moments which fly by in what seems nano-seconds. It's been a long path to arrive at this & it's certainly a muscle which needs ongoing training.

The kids are growing, expanding & moving fluidly on their individual journeys. It's truly a striking composition if only I stand back to see the whole picture every once in awhile. The depth of each of their personalities is so intricate as they have more and more life experiences-- for this I am truly GRATEFUL. We are working on EMBRACING THE JOURNEY, not judging it & we are learning along the way. There is a lot of *talking through* moments & experiences which again, I'm so grateful we are within this realm. I know many families whom are unable to converse with their autistic children verbally (my own were in that place 6-8 years ago)-- so I don't take this for granted.

My thoughts for today. Don't be afraid to LOVE FIERCELY. Trust others with your Heart. Forgive & step-up in Being the Change You Want to See. Celebrate the little things, as in the end those are the BIG THINGS. Be okay with letting go & letting God... accept we are never truly in control in this place & be okay with it. Allow yourself to fail FORWARD; this is how we all LEARN. When you find yourself stuck on how life isn't going Your way-- Give to Others without any EXPECTATIONS. Check yourself to see if you are the example you want to be for your family. Faith is HOPE on Fire-- show this to your children. Have a GRATEFUL HEART.
- Momma T.